Runaway Train ..

So yeah, first post since well .. my first post .. and I'm worried if it might be my last. Every so often the weight of all the things past and present that have or are going wrong for me hit and I feel absolutely crushed. I feel like all I can do is run .. quit everything and hide .. terrified and crying. I'm fighting this feeling right now. Like maybe I should quit all my groups, give back my collar, let Eden out of our partnership and just disappear, even quit SL. A voice deep inside tells me over and over its the right thing to do for everyone even when they tell me its not. Its ultimately a feeling of not being good enough. And well.. I dunno. Thats all for now. I might add to this in a bit.